Well, I think it would be appropriate to start with some new year resolutions that I have came up with for the year 2008... here goes:
- Being alive till 2009.
- Get GPA of at least 3.4 this sem.
- Learn to spend less and save up more.
- Accepts the love that's gone, forget about it, and find a new one.
- Play less and concentrate more on studies.
- Lose weight, grow muscle, and keep weight at below 75kg.
- Eat less
The last time I made any resolutions were last year, and I gave up on them exactly one week after making them, so I hope this time I would stick to my resolutions for at least a longer time.. haha.. =_=
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Last night, dreamt of someone I thought I've forgotten, and it kinda disturbed me quite a bit. Does a dream really tells one's true desire? She was sitting beside me with a smile on her face, and we were joking around with each other while sitting on a windy grassland.
One year ago, I promised myself that I would completely forget about her, and I spent each day trying to occupy my mind with something else so that I don't think about her all the time. I thought I was doing pretty well, didn't really think about her much anymore, and in fact, I was interested with another girl at school few months back. Slowly, I told myself that she hold no significance in my life, and I tried carrying out my life as normally as I could.
When Christmas came, I knew that my friends would be coming from overseas to meet each other at Singapore, and I also knew that she would be coming back as well. Strangely enough, my efforts for the past year seemed to have been futile, because just by having a thought of possibly meeting her again gave me the same feeling that I had three years ago, the feeling of when I fell in love with her.
I started asking myself questions: Am I really useless against my past, so much so that I am doing myself no good for my future? How long would I continue to think about someone that I cannot obtain? Would this cycle keep repeating as the year pass? What do I really want?
First Love is a strange thing that binds its victim for decades to come. Failure to obtain the First Love translates to a lifetime of pain and a longing for a false hope that will never knock on the doorstep. I asked myself once again, Does a dream really tells one's desire? Seems like I would just have to live my life to find the answer to that question.
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Cooked mapo tofu today for lunch. My uncle said it was nice, but my little cousins didnt like it too much cuz it was spicy.. haha.. =_= Gonna cook them something nice tomorrow I guess :)
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Joke of the Day:
A little boy wrote to Santa ...
One day, a little boy wrote to Santa Clause, "Please send me a sister." Santa Clause wrote him back, "Ok, send me your mother."
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